Monday, October 19, 2009
i love my dad
This was our conversation in emails this morning (he works in I.T)-
me: doonntt forrgeettt to buyy my soundwwavee tickettt today!
dad: You're holding some of the buttons too long. A simple, light tap
should suffice.
me: oh, if that doesn't work I'll try turning it off and on again?
dad: Lol
Sunday, October 18, 2009
I love learning.
But not the sort of things you learn at school. I like learning how to make daisy chains and how to make a pinhole camera and I like good ideas. I like learning things that I feel that I'll need later in life, I don't like learning about binomial probability and normal distribution. I wish my teachers could understand this.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
thirty things about me, hah
01: I love Siamese cats, so much
02: I love Max Bemis, so much (but if you didn't know that, you probably aren't paying very much attention)
03: I'm left-handed
04: Getting ready for school in the morning is okay because while I do it I listen to Robbie, Mareke and the Doctor on JJJ
05: I'm half German, my great grandmother used to walk in the Black Forest every morning, and my great uncles fought in WWII
06: I'm already running out of things to say
07: I need glasses but I hardly ever wear them in public
08: I've been bitten with the travel bug
09: I can't stand having long fingernails, and I always look trashy with black or red nail polish
10: I don't believe in God
11: I really love seeing movies at the Rundle Street cinemas
12: My favourite type of date is probably dinner and a movie
13: I prefer winter over summer, and one day I wanna live in England
14: I'm not certain of anything, but I wouldn't have it any other way
15: English is the only subject I get A's in
16: My hair is naturally blonde and curly
17: People who haven't seen me for a few years generally don't recognise me
18: I like the smell of hair-dye, and the smell of a sauna
19: My first celebrity crushes were Harry Potter and Jesse McCartney
20: I don't really like myself
21: There are certain things I won't want to talk to you about
22: Jokes about suicide, homosexuality or Nazis will not be appreciated
23: I'm getting my braces off on November 11, I was meant to have them off in May
24: I don't really like many people, but that doesn't mean I'm not a nice person
25: I like karma
26: I like long, hot showers or baths
27: I love being cosy
28: I like spending time with my friends, but I also like going off by myself and doing what I want
29: I keep to myself at school
30: I already know where I want to live- in the loungeroom there's a feature wall that's exposed brick, one of the walls in the hallway is entirely made up with bookcase, there's lots of mementos everywhere, a slanted roof and Max Bemis in the bed.
02: I love Max Bemis, so much (but if you didn't know that, you probably aren't paying very much attention)
03: I'm left-handed
04: Getting ready for school in the morning is okay because while I do it I listen to Robbie, Mareke and the Doctor on JJJ
05: I'm half German, my great grandmother used to walk in the Black Forest every morning, and my great uncles fought in WWII
06: I'm already running out of things to say
07: I need glasses but I hardly ever wear them in public
08: I've been bitten with the travel bug
09: I can't stand having long fingernails, and I always look trashy with black or red nail polish
10: I don't believe in God
11: I really love seeing movies at the Rundle Street cinemas
12: My favourite type of date is probably dinner and a movie
13: I prefer winter over summer, and one day I wanna live in England
14: I'm not certain of anything, but I wouldn't have it any other way
15: English is the only subject I get A's in
16: My hair is naturally blonde and curly
17: People who haven't seen me for a few years generally don't recognise me
18: I like the smell of hair-dye, and the smell of a sauna
19: My first celebrity crushes were Harry Potter and Jesse McCartney
20: I don't really like myself
21: There are certain things I won't want to talk to you about
22: Jokes about suicide, homosexuality or Nazis will not be appreciated
23: I'm getting my braces off on November 11, I was meant to have them off in May
24: I don't really like many people, but that doesn't mean I'm not a nice person
25: I like karma
26: I like long, hot showers or baths
27: I love being cosy
28: I like spending time with my friends, but I also like going off by myself and doing what I want
29: I keep to myself at school
30: I already know where I want to live- in the loungeroom there's a feature wall that's exposed brick, one of the walls in the hallway is entirely made up with bookcase, there's lots of mementos everywhere, a slanted roof and Max Bemis in the bed.
decided two things this evening -
The first is that I'm going to teach myself how to survive without him, because if he can abandon me, I'll do the same to him.
The second is that I want to live in this house-
The fact that it's in Sweden makes it that much more appealing.
(stole the photos from here)
The second is that I want to live in this house-
The fact that it's in Sweden makes it that much more appealing.
(stole the photos from here)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
At the end of the day, the only person you'll always have is yourself. Sure, other people might tell you that they love you, they probably even mean it at some point too, but nobody sticks around forever. Husbands and wives divorce each other every day, and they all thought their marriages were forever. Over the course of a life you'll have different friends, different partners, different everything. Even familys change.
So, the only constant you have in your life is you. People say you live until you die, and the way I see it, the only thing constant in your life is that you're alive. And as long as you're alive you're going to be you. So you should look after yourself, have your own back because at the end of the day (the very end of the day, the end of your life, I mean), you're all you have.
That doesn't mean you should act selfishly though. I still believe in treating others as I'd like to be treated, and I can hardly bring myself to abuse anyone, if anything I'm a bit of a doormat. I love my friends and family, I'd do anything for them. I just ... when I'm alone in my bedroom I can't help but feel like I'm the only one I can trust. I don't mind, that though.
So, at least for the night, I give up on everyone and I'm just going to go curl up in bed with a wheatbag and my iPod. Goodnight.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
I'm trying to convince myself
that it's worth it. Cause it's not, really, is it.
This is how I get when I redecorate my bedroom, a wreck. Is that wierd?
This is how I get when I redecorate my bedroom, a wreck. Is that wierd?
I hate my body.
Not because I'm insecure, well, yes because I'm insecure, but mainly because of how sick I feel this morning. It's a beautiful day outside and it's the second to last day of school holidays but I'm stuck in bed. All my joints ache and I feel hot on the outside and cold on the inside. This morning I drank half a cup of coffee and threw it up. My head is killing me, I felt like I was going to pass out when I walked to the couch and almost instantly fell asleep in front of the TV. Despite all of this I'm in a really good mood, my mind is good, it's just my body that needs to get better haha.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
I just remembered
to eat and sleep.
I haven't slept since Thursday and I haven't eaten for about 24 hours. I'm not even tired or hungry, what the fuck is wrong with me.
I haven't slept since Thursday and I haven't eaten for about 24 hours. I'm not even tired or hungry, what the fuck is wrong with me.
Friday, October 9, 2009
You have no idea
how easily you tear down the wall I built out of "I'm over him" and "I don't care"s.
You still kill me every time.
You still kill me every time.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
a moment that changed my life
(first, know that my Year three teacher was generally very nice)
In year three, we were making Christmas cards to sell at the school fete. And my friend Alex cut hers wonky. And the teacher showed it to her and said "What is this? You expect people to pay money for this?"
I don't know why it changed me, I can't even explain it. It kindof inadvertantly made me understand what money is ... or something. I don't know, it's probably stupid.
Also, cleaning my room at 1am I found this in the bottom of my drawer. I don't remember writing it but I guess I must've.
In year three, we were making Christmas cards to sell at the school fete. And my friend Alex cut hers wonky. And the teacher showed it to her and said "What is this? You expect people to pay money for this?"
I don't know why it changed me, I can't even explain it. It kindof inadvertantly made me understand what money is ... or something. I don't know, it's probably stupid.
Also, cleaning my room at 1am I found this in the bottom of my drawer. I don't remember writing it but I guess I must've.
i will probably be forever in debt to ben folds
For this song:
Smile like you've got nothing to prove. No matter what you might do, there's always someone out there cooler than you. I know that's hard to believe, but there are people you meet, they're into something that is too big to be. Expressed through their clothes and they'll put up with all the poses you throw, and you won't even know that they're not sizing you up. They know your mum fucked you up, or maybe let you watch too much TV. But they'll still look in your eyes to find the human inside. You know there's always something in there to see. Beneath the veneer. Not everybody made the list this year. Have a beer.
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall but there's always someone cooler than you. Yeah you're the shit but you won't be it for long, yeah there's always someone cooler than you.
Now that I've got the disease, in a way I'm relieved, cause I don't have to stress about it like you do. I might just get up and dance or buy some acid wash pants. When you don't care than you've got nothing to lose. And I won't hesitate, cause every moment life is slipping away. It's okay.
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall but there's always someone cooler than you. Yeah you're the shit but you won't be it for long, yeah there's always someone cooler than you. Oh there's always someone cooler than.
Life is wonderful, life is beautiful, we're all children of one big universe so you don't have to be a chump.
And you know that I won't hesitate cause every moment life is slipping away. It's okay.
and for his music in general. His voice and words are beautiful and I wish I could play the piano like he does. Wow.
Smile like you've got nothing to prove. No matter what you might do, there's always someone out there cooler than you. I know that's hard to believe, but there are people you meet, they're into something that is too big to be. Expressed through their clothes and they'll put up with all the poses you throw, and you won't even know that they're not sizing you up. They know your mum fucked you up, or maybe let you watch too much TV. But they'll still look in your eyes to find the human inside. You know there's always something in there to see. Beneath the veneer. Not everybody made the list this year. Have a beer.
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall but there's always someone cooler than you. Yeah you're the shit but you won't be it for long, yeah there's always someone cooler than you.
Now that I've got the disease, in a way I'm relieved, cause I don't have to stress about it like you do. I might just get up and dance or buy some acid wash pants. When you don't care than you've got nothing to lose. And I won't hesitate, cause every moment life is slipping away. It's okay.
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall but there's always someone cooler than you. Yeah you're the shit but you won't be it for long, yeah there's always someone cooler than you. Oh there's always someone cooler than.
Life is wonderful, life is beautiful, we're all children of one big universe so you don't have to be a chump.
And you know that I won't hesitate cause every moment life is slipping away. It's okay.
and for his music in general. His voice and words are beautiful and I wish I could play the piano like he does. Wow.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Oh, today should be good
Opp-shopping, 500 Days of Summer, Pancake Kitchen. What more could you want
Last night I dreamt that I was walking around Sydney with some guy who was wearing a shirt and suit pants, and we were running through the underground system except the further we ran the more lost we were getting.
Then later on I was in hospital having my leg amputated. Then my doctor decided that because I had already had one leg amputated, they might as well take the other leg off as well. Then when I woke up, for a moment I didn't think I have any legs, it was so crazy.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
My report card came!
English - A
Biology - C
German - B
History - B
Maths - D
Home ec - B
Biology - C
German - B
History - B
Maths - D
Home ec - B
It's pretty good I guess, but I could have done better if I cared
200th blog!
Things I wish I could do-
- dance
- draw
- play the guitar
- speak French
- sightread music
- concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes
- dance
- draw
- play the guitar
- speak French
- sightread music
- concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes
Monday, October 5, 2009
I guess I just
can't wait to look back at photos of me now and laugh at how stupid I look and how dumb I was. I guess I just wanna grow up, uhh I'm obviously really original..
Why
am I only ever inspired to clean my bedroom in the middle of the night, and why am I only ever inspired to look for a job on a public holiday when everything's shut.
*sigh*
Also not that it matters, but lately I've been having sssooo many ideas for typography/drawings I can do 0_0
So maybe you'll see some of them soon...
*sigh*
Also not that it matters, but lately I've been having sssooo many ideas for typography/drawings I can do 0_0
So maybe you'll see some of them soon...
The truth is
I'll probably never be able to post a really long blog about really deep things ... I've written a lot of stuff that's never seen the light of day, I'd feel to vulnerable with people knowing all that stuff.
And the truth is, there's a lot of things that I don't really share with anyone. I know I shouldn't, but ... I do.
This is also why I'm relatively quiet in real life and it's hard for me to tell people how I feel sometimes. I'm shy when I first meet people because I don't expect to be liked.
I don't know, maybe that's crazy and immature, but it's who I am.
And the truth is, there's a lot of things that I don't really share with anyone. I know I shouldn't, but ... I do.
This is also why I'm relatively quiet in real life and it's hard for me to tell people how I feel sometimes. I'm shy when I first meet people because I don't expect to be liked.
I don't know, maybe that's crazy and immature, but it's who I am.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
In my defense -
THEY AREN'T JEGGINGS, THEY'RE JUST REALLY TIGHT JEANS
THEY HAVE A ZIP AND POCKETS AND SEAMS AND BELT LOOPS, THEY AREN'T JEGGINGS
THEY HAVE A ZIP AND POCKETS AND SEAMS AND BELT LOOPS, THEY AREN'T JEGGINGS
Saturday, October 3, 2009
First with your hands
and then with your mouth
A downpour of sweat, damp cotton clouds
I was a fool, you were my friend
We made it happen
You took off your clothes, left on the light
You stood there so brave
You used to be shy
Each feature improved, each movement refined and eyes like a showroom
Now they are spreading out the blankets on the beach
That weatherman is a liar
He said it would be raining but it's clear and blue as far as I can see
Left by the lamp, right next to the bed,
on a cartoon cat pad she scratched with a pen,
"Everything is as it's always been.
This never happened.
Don't take it too bad it is nothing you did.
It's just once something dies you can't make it live.
You're a beautiful boy.
You're a sweet little kid but I am a woman."
So I laid back down and wrapped myself up in the sheet
And I must have looked like a ghost 'cause something frightened me
and since then I've been so good at vanishing
Now I do as I please and lie through my teeth
Someone might get hurt, but it won't be me
I should probably feel cheap but I just feel free...
and a little bit empty
No, it isn't so hard to get close to me
There will be no arguments
We will always agree
And I'll try and be kind when I ask you to leave
We'll both take it easy
But if you stay too long inside my memory,
I will trap you in a song tied to a melody
and I will keep you there so you can't bother me
THE LIST SO FAR
I'm trying to get up to 1000 things I love
/this is copied from my Myspace blog
01: the 'I love' game
002: Say Anything
003: Maxim Adam Bemis
004: movies that're so stupid they're funny (i.e. Billy Maddison, Dud Where's My Car)
005: being up early enough to watch the sun rise
006: breakfast pizza
007: wierd food combinations that're actually really good
008: Asian photobooths
009: good hair days
010: getting to the bus stop/train station just as the bus/train does
011: walking on the beach at night
012: the night sky (especially in the country)
013: all-nighters
014: late night/early morning d&ms
015: cloudy weather, English weather
016: Noel Fielding's accent
017: Noel Fielding's everything
018: 11:11
019: live music
020: second-hand bookshops
021: Melbourne
022: opp-shops
023: the Number 23 (movie)
024: road trips
025: people who genuinnely don't give a shit about their appearance
026: fmylife.com
027: perfecting songs on the piano
028: the first five seconds of The Word You Wield by Say Anything
029: my cat Hamish
030: the episode of The Mighty Boosh where they're stuck on a desert island with their coconut girlfriends
031: Ikea
032: coffee
033: croissants
034: the lemon meringue pies that my Mum sometimes makes
035: the apple pies my Nan sometimes makes
036: having smooth legs
037: The Perks of Being a Wallflower
038: Canon things
039: my Canon EOS 500 film camera
040: the anticipation of waiting for film to be developed
041: combatting fears
042: Polaroid things
043: thinking about my plans to live in England/Europe as soon as I have the money
044: double German every second Thursday
045: the thought that I have my whole life ahead of me
046: meaningful lyrics
047: random compliments
048: sincerity
049: being happy for no reason
050: the smell of hair dye
051: hair dye that comes with proper rubber gloves, not the shitty ones
052: Ordinary People by Judith Guest
053: being proactive
054: being organised
055: making a good first impression
056: guys that smell like Hugo Boss
057: kissing people with cigarette breah
058: noisy kisses
059: minimalist writing
060: red headed, pale, freckly, skinny, green eyed girls with hair that goes down to the small of their back
061: Sean Hughes
062: Ben Elton
063: celebrities who actually have something to say
064: day time TV
065: late night TV
066: Skins
067: Chris Miles' general outlook on life
068: tuna salad sushi
069: innuendos and insinuation
070: China town
071: Hong Fat BBQ
072: having wierd, elaborate dreams
073: my diary
074: randomly running into people you've been meaning to catch up with
075: changes of plans - for the bette r
076: the atmosphere at the Royal Adelaide Show
077: counting down the days until I go to Hamburg for 10 weeks
078: Ocean Grove
079: being alone sometimes
080: Frankie magazine
081: Hudsons
082: being missed by people
083: feeling wanted
084: feeling accepted
085: incense
086: the pretty parts of the Torrens - near the zoo etc
087: listening Robbie, Mareke and the Doctor while I get ready for school
088: Lindsay "the Doctor" McDougall
089: JJJTV
090: Sam Simmon's Shitty Trivia
091: Scott "Dools" Dooley
092: English culture
093: English boys
094: Harry Potter - the movies
095: Harry Potter - the books
096: Harry Potter - the character
097: awkward moments - that i'm not responsible for
098: awkward gaps in conversation - that i'm not responsible for
099: leaving school after the last day of the term/year
100: English slang
101: lying in bed listening to rain
102: white hot chocolate
103: tapirs
104: coffeeshops
105: when you get to the pedestrian crossing just as it goes green
106: well-dressed Asians
107: grey old days
108: rugging up
109: the number 9
110: going to live music and feeling the vibrations of the speakers as if the music's going straight through you
111: going to live music and having hot sweaty bodies pressed against you from every angle
112: getting things in the mail
113: secretly loving movies like Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging
114: standing up for the things I believe in
115: having morals and sticking to them
116: up-beat music
117: getting up when I'm ready to / waking up in my own time
118: having unlimited SMS's
119: memory lane
120: popcorn chicken
121: lying in bed awake at night, focusing on the music i'm listening to
122: having a good cry sometimes. letting it all out
123: the really old Looney Tunes cartoons
124: the concept of infinity
125: wondering what people on the other side of the world are doing right now
126: when things just, fall into place nicely
127: collapsing into bed after a long day
128: retail therapy
129: inside jokes
130: taking inside jokes too far
131: laughing until my cheeks are sore
132: waking up happy
133: falling asleep happy
134: all the video games I used to play
135: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets video game
136: The Sims 2
137: my favourite jeans
138: my favourite hoodie
139: my denim jacket
140: Julian Casablancas
141: having a shoulder to cry on
142: escapism
143: getting really into whatever book or movie I'm reading/watching
144: Georgia's grandparents house
145: Georgia's grandpartents granny flat
146: the house I stayed in in Robe
147: the house I stayed in in Kangaroo Island
148: Sailor Moon
149: theme songs from old shows like Sailor Moon and Captain Planet
150: trying to lucid dream
151: chocolate covered coffee beans
152: going to bed in a clean bedroom
153: finding cool stuff when you're cleaning your room
154: cooking dinner
155: cooking, in general
156: doing what I want, when I want
157: Daisy by Marc Jacobs
158: With Love by Hiary Duff
159: all Britney Spear's perfume
160:
when you're tossing up whether or not you can be bothered taking your
makeup off before bed, but you do and afterwards looking at the
face-wipe and thinking 'Fuck, I nearly went to bed with that all over my face'
161: sleazy pick-up lines
162: random useless facts
163: the word 'diminutive'
164: the word 'prerequisite'
165: the word 'facade'
166: the name Oliver
167: the name Olivia
168: the name Declan
169: chihuahuas
170: Daria (the TV show)
171: just hanging out in my bedroom
172: movies with Zooey Deschanel in them
173: movies with Zach Braff in them
174: Scrubs
175: the janitor in Scrubs
176: plaid
177: rare moments when I'm actually happy with the person I am
178: Mr Bax (year 9 art teacher)
179: Mr Vickery (year 11 aus studies teacher)
180: Mr Sharp (year 10/11 german teacher)
181: sitting by the heater/fire
182: roasting marshmellows
183: ghost stories
184: having good ideas
185: when you spend ages trying to understand something, and then all of a sudden it finally makes sense
186: feeling one with everything
187: I Like Giants - Kimya Dawson
188: just spending time with my best friend
189: talking to him about what our appartment's gonna be like
190: naturally beautiful girls
191: green eyes
192: kissing people with lip-rings
193: creativity
194: Long Way Round
195: Long Way Down
196: that I have the ability to quietly slip into the background
197: catchy songs
198: actually going through with my crazy ideas
199: Luke Pritchard
200: John Lennon
201: people with enough will-power to do the 365 Project on Flickr
202: Dove Body Silk mousturiser
203: Garnier Fructis everything
204: when you don't expect someone to know what you're talking about but htey do
205: Conor Oberst
206: the beauty spot on my stomach
207: Hey Arnold!
208: predicting what song's gonna come on next - and then being right
209: sleepovers
210: sitting in the sun
211: being called 'bub'
212: considerate people
213: Max Bemis' mannerisms
214: the way he sort of, pauses and shakes his head a little bit
215: Naboo
216: iPod solitaire
217: crazy American reality shows
218: being a little bit tipsy
219: obscure cultural references
220: being in a good moood just because
221: remembering something that you've been trying to remember for ages
222: seeing a movie/hearing a song that you heard ages ago but haven't been able to remember the name of
223: siamese cats
224: ugly dogs
225: eskimo kisses
226: butterfly kisses
227: vanilla coke
228: cherry coke
229: cherry ripes
230: violet crumble
231: when you ask someone to do something for you, don't expect them to do it, but then they do it anyway
232: Alice in Wonderland
233: getting good marks at school
234: spooning
235: lying with my head on somebody's chest listening to their heartbeat
236: when school assemblys are actually funny
237: 2:37
238: movie marathons with friends
239: the fact that georgia and I have a list of movies we wanna watch, and a list of all our inside jokse (it's more than 6 pages long)
240: cooking good things in home ec
241: art
242: getting really messy while doing art
243: not smoking
244: the book shop where I discovered some of my favourite books
245: hanging out rather than partying
246: long walks just wherever
247: travelling anywhere
248: planes, flying
249: airports
250: hot baths on cold days
251: acoustic versions of songs
252: knowing that it doesn't matter what i do today because in 150 years no-one will even know who i am
253: good songs with good music videos
254: really bad jokes
255: when you expect a day to be bad, but it actually turns out being really really good
256: knowing crazy random facts
257: buying new make-up
258: poignance
259: Just Married
260: quilt tents
261: Mcdonalds apple pies
262: vegetarianism
263: pouring my heart out onto a piece of paper
264: when everything falls into place nicely
265: www.myspace.com/jackchambersmusic
266: www.millymcmahon.blogspot.com
267: the fact that i can blog from my phone
268: people who smell really nice
269: finally getting the food out from in between your teeth
270: finally getting the eyelash out of your eye
271: when I fall asleep straight away
272: mylifeisaverage.com
273: unconventional beauty
274: Sarah Blasko's clothes
275: Say Anything (the movie)
276: Lloyd Dobbler
277: the way John Cusack talks
278: line drawings
279: owls
280: deers
281: butterflies
282: quotes, quoting people
283: learning
284: remembering
285: fake eyelashes
286: guys with naturally thick and long eyelashes
287: To Write Love On Her Arms
288: scented candles
289: The Body Shop
290: organic things
291: being healthy
292: being unhealthy
293: fairy lights
294: familys that go completely over the top with Christmas decorations
295: Christmas jumpers all year
296: music festivals, in general
297: exceptions to the rule
298: people who are cool purely because they couldn't care less about being cool
299: being bi-lingual (more or less)
300: the English sense of humour
301: discovering great bands
302: thoughtful people
303: people who honestly care
304: people who put other people before themselves
305: putting other people before myself
306: talking forever about nothing at all
307: random Simpsons quotes (feels like i'm wearing nothing at all, nothing at all, nothing at all)
308: the episode of the Simpsons where Sideshow Bob is trying to kill Bart so the Simpsons move to a boathouse - become a legend in my household
309: writing lists
310: warm milk with honey
311: when you realise that there's more money in your wallet than you thought there was
312: when somebody's trying to explain smoething to you, but you pretend to be an idiot and not get it, and they end up having to explain it really slowly and simply
313: Princess Diana
314: the way i'm not even introverted when i'm drunk
315: coming out of my shell once in a while
316: nice people, in general
317: good karma
318: bad karma happening to bad people
319: seeing good karma happen to good people
320: hide and seek
321: murder in the dark
322: youtubing Max Bemis
323: Mia Michael's choreography on So You Think You Can Dance US
324: getting shivers
325: motherlode, motivedecay off, various other crazy Sims 2 cheats
326: Kevin Rudd, PM on rove
327: miserable weather
328: chilli flavoured things
329: sour cream and chives flavoured things
330: putting pepper on everything
331: picnics
332: being healthy
333: being unhealthy
334: oddity
335: rarity
336: being quaint
337: cherry flavoured anything
338: strawberry flavoured anything
339: the way that my brother fumigates the bathroom with chocolate lynx every morning and it smells amazing
340: singing in the shower
341: belting out songs
342: when you start singing a song and someone else joins in
343: being imaginative
344: pretending
345: convincing gullible people of stuff
346: the smell of china-town
347: the crazy people you seem to see walking around Adelaide
348: Ray-Bans
349: thick-rimmed glasses (except mine)
350: when somebody accidentally says 'say anything' in the middle of a conversation
351: driving around with dad
352: the fucking stupid things dad says
353: the Fabiani jumper that dad's been wearing to bed for literally as long as i can remmeber
354: songs that seem like they could've been written about you
355: 1960s english culture
356: 1970s english culture
357: the original punk bands
358: being right
359: people who do brave things to their hair
360: when the battery on my ipod goes up a bit
361: understanding
362: enigmas
363: oxymorons
364: the Curse of Monkey Island and various other wierd videogames my brother and I used to play
365: summer
366: winter
367: autumn
368: spring
369: blue skies
370: making shapes out of clouds
371: people who beat the statistics
372: being care-free
373: being free-spirited
374: not having a worry in the world
375: not caring about the future
376: caring about the future
377: strawberry milk
378: banana milk
379: being told that everything's going to be okay
380: people with interesting/original body modifications
381: tattoos in general
382: spending as much time as possible with my cousins because they're so young but they're also growing up really quickly
383: feeling clean after a shower
384: using too much soap in the shower
385: using too much bubble bath in the bath
386: staying in the bath until your fingers and toes go wrinkly
387: cold showers in the morning
388: hot showers at night
389: Wok in a Box
390: hokkien noodles
391: egg noodles
392: fortune cookies
393: spring rolls
394: crazy stories that Pop tells me about when he was in the Navy
395: bear hugs
396: big jumpers
397: sleeping naked
398: getting into a warm bed
399: marshmellows
400: when you sit in a spa for ages, then when you get out it's freezing but when you get in again it's really nice
401: people with a unique sense of style
402: my pink donald duck ailor bag
403: driving around with Dad
404: Rage at 3am
405: Subway cookies (especially macadamia)
406: getting eye make-up looking exactly the same on both eyes (because it hardle ever happens)
407: making really fucked up familys on the Sims
408: singing in the shower
409: really belting out songs
410: not wearing pants
411: being organised
412: being totally unorganised and just letting things happen
413: the way that my short hair doesnlt take very long to straighten
414: always looking for the silver lining
415: surrounding myself with positive people
416: using 'well' instead of 'very' (ie I'm well tired)
417: surprising people
418: when someone makes you feel beautiful, rather than just telling you
419: people who smell good
420: being kissed on the neck
421: being kissed on the collarbone
422: people with nice collar/cheek/pelvis bones
423: agreeing
424: disagreeing
425: getting home from a holiday and sleeping in your own bed
426: panoramas
427: everything else
/this is copied from my Myspace blog
01: the 'I love' game
002: Say Anything
003: Maxim Adam Bemis
004: movies that're so stupid they're funny (i.e. Billy Maddison, Dud Where's My Car)
005: being up early enough to watch the sun rise
006: breakfast pizza
007: wierd food combinations that're actually really good
008: Asian photobooths
009: good hair days
010: getting to the bus stop/train station just as the bus/train does
011: walking on the beach at night
012: the night sky (especially in the country)
013: all-nighters
014: late night/early morning d&ms
015: cloudy weather, English weather
016: Noel Fielding's accent
017: Noel Fielding's everything
018: 11:11
019: live music
020: second-hand bookshops
021: Melbourne
022: opp-shops
023: the Number 23 (movie)
024: road trips
025: people who genuinnely don't give a shit about their appearance
026: fmylife.com
027: perfecting songs on the piano
028: the first five seconds of The Word You Wield by Say Anything
029: my cat Hamish
030: the episode of The Mighty Boosh where they're stuck on a desert island with their coconut girlfriends
031: Ikea
032: coffee
033: croissants
034: the lemon meringue pies that my Mum sometimes makes
035: the apple pies my Nan sometimes makes
036: having smooth legs
037: The Perks of Being a Wallflower
038: Canon things
039: my Canon EOS 500 film camera
040: the anticipation of waiting for film to be developed
041: combatting fears
042: Polaroid things
043: thinking about my plans to live in England/Europe as soon as I have the money
044: double German every second Thursday
045: the thought that I have my whole life ahead of me
046: meaningful lyrics
047: random compliments
048: sincerity
049: being happy for no reason
050: the smell of hair dye
051: hair dye that comes with proper rubber gloves, not the shitty ones
052: Ordinary People by Judith Guest
053: being proactive
054: being organised
055: making a good first impression
056: guys that smell like Hugo Boss
057: kissing people with cigarette breah
058: noisy kisses
059: minimalist writing
060: red headed, pale, freckly, skinny, green eyed girls with hair that goes down to the small of their back
061: Sean Hughes
062: Ben Elton
063: celebrities who actually have something to say
064: day time TV
065: late night TV
066: Skins
067: Chris Miles' general outlook on life
068: tuna salad sushi
069: innuendos and insinuation
070: China town
071: Hong Fat BBQ
072: having wierd, elaborate dreams
073: my diary
074: randomly running into people you've been meaning to catch up with
075: changes of plans - for the bette r
076: the atmosphere at the Royal Adelaide Show
077: counting down the days until I go to Hamburg for 10 weeks
078: Ocean Grove
079: being alone sometimes
080: Frankie magazine
081: Hudsons
082: being missed by people
083: feeling wanted
084: feeling accepted
085: incense
086: the pretty parts of the Torrens - near the zoo etc
087: listening Robbie, Mareke and the Doctor while I get ready for school
088: Lindsay "the Doctor" McDougall
089: JJJTV
090: Sam Simmon's Shitty Trivia
091: Scott "Dools" Dooley
092: English culture
093: English boys
094: Harry Potter - the movies
095: Harry Potter - the books
096: Harry Potter - the character
097: awkward moments - that i'm not responsible for
098: awkward gaps in conversation - that i'm not responsible for
099: leaving school after the last day of the term/year
100: English slang
101: lying in bed listening to rain
102: white hot chocolate
103: tapirs
104: coffeeshops
105: when you get to the pedestrian crossing just as it goes green
106: well-dressed Asians
107: grey old days
108: rugging up
109: the number 9
110: going to live music and feeling the vibrations of the speakers as if the music's going straight through you
111: going to live music and having hot sweaty bodies pressed against you from every angle
112: getting things in the mail
113: secretly loving movies like Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging
114: standing up for the things I believe in
115: having morals and sticking to them
116: up-beat music
117: getting up when I'm ready to / waking up in my own time
118: having unlimited SMS's
119: memory lane
120: popcorn chicken
121: lying in bed awake at night, focusing on the music i'm listening to
122: having a good cry sometimes. letting it all out
123: the really old Looney Tunes cartoons
124: the concept of infinity
125: wondering what people on the other side of the world are doing right now
126: when things just, fall into place nicely
127: collapsing into bed after a long day
128: retail therapy
129: inside jokes
130: taking inside jokes too far
131: laughing until my cheeks are sore
132: waking up happy
133: falling asleep happy
134: all the video games I used to play
135: Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets video game
136: The Sims 2
137: my favourite jeans
138: my favourite hoodie
139: my denim jacket
140: Julian Casablancas
141: having a shoulder to cry on
142: escapism
143: getting really into whatever book or movie I'm reading/watching
144: Georgia's grandparents house
145: Georgia's grandpartents granny flat
146: the house I stayed in in Robe
147: the house I stayed in in Kangaroo Island
148: Sailor Moon
149: theme songs from old shows like Sailor Moon and Captain Planet
150: trying to lucid dream
151: chocolate covered coffee beans
152: going to bed in a clean bedroom
153: finding cool stuff when you're cleaning your room
154: cooking dinner
155: cooking, in general
156: doing what I want, when I want
157: Daisy by Marc Jacobs
158: With Love by Hiary Duff
159: all Britney Spear's perfume
160:
when you're tossing up whether or not you can be bothered taking your
makeup off before bed, but you do and afterwards looking at the
face-wipe and thinking 'Fuck, I nearly went to bed with that all over my face'
161: sleazy pick-up lines
162: random useless facts
163: the word 'diminutive'
164: the word 'prerequisite'
165: the word 'facade'
166: the name Oliver
167: the name Olivia
168: the name Declan
169: chihuahuas
170: Daria (the TV show)
171: just hanging out in my bedroom
172: movies with Zooey Deschanel in them
173: movies with Zach Braff in them
174: Scrubs
175: the janitor in Scrubs
176: plaid
177: rare moments when I'm actually happy with the person I am
178: Mr Bax (year 9 art teacher)
179: Mr Vickery (year 11 aus studies teacher)
180: Mr Sharp (year 10/11 german teacher)
181: sitting by the heater/fire
182: roasting marshmellows
183: ghost stories
184: having good ideas
185: when you spend ages trying to understand something, and then all of a sudden it finally makes sense
186: feeling one with everything
187: I Like Giants - Kimya Dawson
188: just spending time with my best friend
189: talking to him about what our appartment's gonna be like
190: naturally beautiful girls
191: green eyes
192: kissing people with lip-rings
193: creativity
194: Long Way Round
195: Long Way Down
196: that I have the ability to quietly slip into the background
197: catchy songs
198: actually going through with my crazy ideas
199: Luke Pritchard
200: John Lennon
201: people with enough will-power to do the 365 Project on Flickr
202: Dove Body Silk mousturiser
203: Garnier Fructis everything
204: when you don't expect someone to know what you're talking about but htey do
205: Conor Oberst
206: the beauty spot on my stomach
207: Hey Arnold!
208: predicting what song's gonna come on next - and then being right
209: sleepovers
210: sitting in the sun
211: being called 'bub'
212: considerate people
213: Max Bemis' mannerisms
214: the way he sort of, pauses and shakes his head a little bit
215: Naboo
216: iPod solitaire
217: crazy American reality shows
218: being a little bit tipsy
219: obscure cultural references
220: being in a good moood just because
221: remembering something that you've been trying to remember for ages
222: seeing a movie/hearing a song that you heard ages ago but haven't been able to remember the name of
223: siamese cats
224: ugly dogs
225: eskimo kisses
226: butterfly kisses
227: vanilla coke
228: cherry coke
229: cherry ripes
230: violet crumble
231: when you ask someone to do something for you, don't expect them to do it, but then they do it anyway
232: Alice in Wonderland
233: getting good marks at school
234: spooning
235: lying with my head on somebody's chest listening to their heartbeat
236: when school assemblys are actually funny
237: 2:37
238: movie marathons with friends
239: the fact that georgia and I have a list of movies we wanna watch, and a list of all our inside jokse (it's more than 6 pages long)
240: cooking good things in home ec
241: art
242: getting really messy while doing art
243: not smoking
244: the book shop where I discovered some of my favourite books
245: hanging out rather than partying
246: long walks just wherever
247: travelling anywhere
248: planes, flying
249: airports
250: hot baths on cold days
251: acoustic versions of songs
252: knowing that it doesn't matter what i do today because in 150 years no-one will even know who i am
253: good songs with good music videos
254: really bad jokes
255: when you expect a day to be bad, but it actually turns out being really really good
256: knowing crazy random facts
257: buying new make-up
258: poignance
259: Just Married
260: quilt tents
261: Mcdonalds apple pies
262: vegetarianism
263: pouring my heart out onto a piece of paper
264: when everything falls into place nicely
265: www.myspace.com/jackchambersmusic
266: www.millymcmahon.blogspot.com
267: the fact that i can blog from my phone
268: people who smell really nice
269: finally getting the food out from in between your teeth
270: finally getting the eyelash out of your eye
271: when I fall asleep straight away
272: mylifeisaverage.com
273: unconventional beauty
274: Sarah Blasko's clothes
275: Say Anything (the movie)
276: Lloyd Dobbler
277: the way John Cusack talks
278: line drawings
279: owls
280: deers
281: butterflies
282: quotes, quoting people
283: learning
284: remembering
285: fake eyelashes
286: guys with naturally thick and long eyelashes
287: To Write Love On Her Arms
288: scented candles
289: The Body Shop
290: organic things
291: being healthy
292: being unhealthy
293: fairy lights
294: familys that go completely over the top with Christmas decorations
295: Christmas jumpers all year
296: music festivals, in general
297: exceptions to the rule
298: people who are cool purely because they couldn't care less about being cool
299: being bi-lingual (more or less)
300: the English sense of humour
301: discovering great bands
302: thoughtful people
303: people who honestly care
304: people who put other people before themselves
305: putting other people before myself
306: talking forever about nothing at all
307: random Simpsons quotes (feels like i'm wearing nothing at all, nothing at all, nothing at all)
308: the episode of the Simpsons where Sideshow Bob is trying to kill Bart so the Simpsons move to a boathouse - become a legend in my household
309: writing lists
310: warm milk with honey
311: when you realise that there's more money in your wallet than you thought there was
312: when somebody's trying to explain smoething to you, but you pretend to be an idiot and not get it, and they end up having to explain it really slowly and simply
313: Princess Diana
314: the way i'm not even introverted when i'm drunk
315: coming out of my shell once in a while
316: nice people, in general
317: good karma
318: bad karma happening to bad people
319: seeing good karma happen to good people
320: hide and seek
321: murder in the dark
322: youtubing Max Bemis
323: Mia Michael's choreography on So You Think You Can Dance US
324: getting shivers
325: motherlode, motivedecay off, various other crazy Sims 2 cheats
326: Kevin Rudd, PM on rove
327: miserable weather
328: chilli flavoured things
329: sour cream and chives flavoured things
330: putting pepper on everything
331: picnics
332: being healthy
333: being unhealthy
334: oddity
335: rarity
336: being quaint
337: cherry flavoured anything
338: strawberry flavoured anything
339: the way that my brother fumigates the bathroom with chocolate lynx every morning and it smells amazing
340: singing in the shower
341: belting out songs
342: when you start singing a song and someone else joins in
343: being imaginative
344: pretending
345: convincing gullible people of stuff
346: the smell of china-town
347: the crazy people you seem to see walking around Adelaide
348: Ray-Bans
349: thick-rimmed glasses (except mine)
350: when somebody accidentally says 'say anything' in the middle of a conversation
351: driving around with dad
352: the fucking stupid things dad says
353: the Fabiani jumper that dad's been wearing to bed for literally as long as i can remmeber
354: songs that seem like they could've been written about you
355: 1960s english culture
356: 1970s english culture
357: the original punk bands
358: being right
359: people who do brave things to their hair
360: when the battery on my ipod goes up a bit
361: understanding
362: enigmas
363: oxymorons
364: the Curse of Monkey Island and various other wierd videogames my brother and I used to play
365: summer
366: winter
367: autumn
368: spring
369: blue skies
370: making shapes out of clouds
371: people who beat the statistics
372: being care-free
373: being free-spirited
374: not having a worry in the world
375: not caring about the future
376: caring about the future
377: strawberry milk
378: banana milk
379: being told that everything's going to be okay
380: people with interesting/original body modifications
381: tattoos in general
382: spending as much time as possible with my cousins because they're so young but they're also growing up really quickly
383: feeling clean after a shower
384: using too much soap in the shower
385: using too much bubble bath in the bath
386: staying in the bath until your fingers and toes go wrinkly
387: cold showers in the morning
388: hot showers at night
389: Wok in a Box
390: hokkien noodles
391: egg noodles
392: fortune cookies
393: spring rolls
394: crazy stories that Pop tells me about when he was in the Navy
395: bear hugs
396: big jumpers
397: sleeping naked
398: getting into a warm bed
399: marshmellows
400: when you sit in a spa for ages, then when you get out it's freezing but when you get in again it's really nice
401: people with a unique sense of style
402: my pink donald duck ailor bag
403: driving around with Dad
404: Rage at 3am
405: Subway cookies (especially macadamia)
406: getting eye make-up looking exactly the same on both eyes (because it hardle ever happens)
407: making really fucked up familys on the Sims
408: singing in the shower
409: really belting out songs
410: not wearing pants
411: being organised
412: being totally unorganised and just letting things happen
413: the way that my short hair doesnlt take very long to straighten
414: always looking for the silver lining
415: surrounding myself with positive people
416: using 'well' instead of 'very' (ie I'm well tired)
417: surprising people
418: when someone makes you feel beautiful, rather than just telling you
419: people who smell good
420: being kissed on the neck
421: being kissed on the collarbone
422: people with nice collar/cheek/pelvis bones
423: agreeing
424: disagreeing
425: getting home from a holiday and sleeping in your own bed
426: panoramas
427: everything else
last night I dreamt
that I was ... okay it's all sort of confusing and not in chronological order in my head.
But I was in jail for some reason, I think I was framed of murdering someone. And I was in a padded cell and a panel was trying to determine whether or not I was insane, but I was slamming myself into the walls and yelling because I was innocent so they thought I was crazy. So they put me in a white straight jacket and made me walk the halls of the prison to go to the car to go to the mental hospital. When I was walking through the prison, everyone else was wearing the bright orange prison uniform, and becuase I was in white everyone knew that I was crazy. And in my head I kept thinking about One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, and how when I was in the mental hospital I would convince them not only of my sanity, but also my innocence. They walked me through the prison and to the lift where we stood and waited. While we were waiting for the lift, I saw a girl waiting for the lift next to me. I think she must have been my girlfriend, I told her I was sorry and that I'd come back really soon, and I kissed her on the cheek and then on her neck, but she looked really sad.
Then I was standing on a pier saying goodbye to my family and I hugged them all, then the next thing I knew I was on a plane being flown to the mental institution, lying on a bed facing the wall.
Then for some reason I was trying to find somebody who I knew could help me get out of the bad situation I was in (I'm not sure what the situation I was in was, except I'm pretty sure that I was on the run from either the prison or the government, or something). And the person I was looking for lived on a farm, so I was walking throughout the English countryside looking for her farm. I was pretty lost and confused and eventually I came across a group of people who were singing. One of the men came up to me and asked me what I was looking for, and I told him that I'm pretty sure it's called ...the something or something, I don't remember it now. And he said, oh yeah I know what you mean, and he gave me really extensive directions.
Hahahaha, lots of other things happened as well, but I can't really remember it well enough to put it in words .... something about a train station.
But I was in jail for some reason, I think I was framed of murdering someone. And I was in a padded cell and a panel was trying to determine whether or not I was insane, but I was slamming myself into the walls and yelling because I was innocent so they thought I was crazy. So they put me in a white straight jacket and made me walk the halls of the prison to go to the car to go to the mental hospital. When I was walking through the prison, everyone else was wearing the bright orange prison uniform, and becuase I was in white everyone knew that I was crazy. And in my head I kept thinking about One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, and how when I was in the mental hospital I would convince them not only of my sanity, but also my innocence. They walked me through the prison and to the lift where we stood and waited. While we were waiting for the lift, I saw a girl waiting for the lift next to me. I think she must have been my girlfriend, I told her I was sorry and that I'd come back really soon, and I kissed her on the cheek and then on her neck, but she looked really sad.
Then I was standing on a pier saying goodbye to my family and I hugged them all, then the next thing I knew I was on a plane being flown to the mental institution, lying on a bed facing the wall.
Then for some reason I was trying to find somebody who I knew could help me get out of the bad situation I was in (I'm not sure what the situation I was in was, except I'm pretty sure that I was on the run from either the prison or the government, or something). And the person I was looking for lived on a farm, so I was walking throughout the English countryside looking for her farm. I was pretty lost and confused and eventually I came across a group of people who were singing. One of the men came up to me and asked me what I was looking for, and I told him that I'm pretty sure it's called ...the something or something, I don't remember it now. And he said, oh yeah I know what you mean, and he gave me really extensive directions.
Hahahaha, lots of other things happened as well, but I can't really remember it well enough to put it in words .... something about a train station.
I love Frankie more and more
(from the September/October 2009 Frankie, click on it to see it big enough to read)
Friday, October 2, 2009
Exerpt from a really old diary of mine?
I wrote it on a bus so it's nearly illegible haha.
"Sometimes on buses I like to pretend that everyone with headphones is listening to the same whimsical song. The same harmony creates the same atmosphere for all of us, the same atmosphere evokes the same emotions, and while the lyrics mean different things to different people, we are all feeling the same thing. It's nice to think that everyone here is sharing something, even though we've never met under the normal circumstances. It's nice to think that we're all connected, and are all a part of this unspoken community, no matter what we do."
"Sometimes on buses I like to pretend that everyone with headphones is listening to the same whimsical song. The same harmony creates the same atmosphere for all of us, the same atmosphere evokes the same emotions, and while the lyrics mean different things to different people, we are all feeling the same thing. It's nice to think that everyone here is sharing something, even though we've never met under the normal circumstances. It's nice to think that we're all connected, and are all a part of this unspoken community, no matter what we do."
I don't know.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
It's a terrible thing to know
that at 10:37 I've been single for exactly a year, hm.
This shouldn't be as important to me as it is, because I actually
believe that, contrary to what society tries to tell me, there are
actually more important things in a woman's life than having a
boyfriend.
Still hurts though..
This shouldn't be as important to me as it is, because I actually
believe that, contrary to what society tries to tell me, there are
actually more important things in a woman's life than having a
boyfriend.
Still hurts though..
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