Tuesday, June 30, 2009

second day of work experience

same as yesterday essentially. the most interesting thing that happened today was going into a meeting with photographers, make-up artists, about a photoshoot that's happening tomorrow (after i leave, of course). yeah. the rest of the day was basically spent writing a report thing analysing three ads, 1210 words, and then basically refreshing myspace and looking through flickr. i think i must've added at least two pages of favourites bfeore my lunch break. tomorrow i'm going to a different advertising place, so hopefully i'll have something to do there haha.
so now i'm sitting here, should wash my hair, should delete photos off my camera, should be doing SOMETHING productive. i feel so dirty.
but whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

i have so many thoughts throughout the day that i'd like to put into blogs but i forget them. i have to start carrying around a journal or something, seriouslyyyy.
jesus i hate being bored.
this is my favourite photo that i found on flickr today -

okay that's it, i'm gonna go wash the day's dirt off of me.

thank you

for making leaving you behind so easy. i hope you never change, because if you keep going like this you won't have anyone left, you fucking cunt. good riddance.

Monday, June 29, 2009

work experience today

Didn't do much, really. Sat on myspace and facebook for a looooong time, sat in at a few meetings, ate some guys birthday cake, went to supre to buy a dress for a photoshoot that's happening after i leave, probably spent too long on my lunch break. Eh.

'west terrace shuffle'

has no deep underlying meaning to it. driving into town with my parents this morning, when we got off west terrace mum said "right, we survived the west terrace shuffle" and it appealed to me. maybe it's pretentious, maybe i'll change it again soon.

This is the first day of my life

Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain
Suddenly everything changed
They're spreadin' blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
Think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go
So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

I remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange
You said everything changed
You felt as if you'd just woke up
And you said,
This is the first day of my life,
Glad I didn't die before I met you
But now I don't care I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy.

So if you wanna be with me
With these things there's no telling
We'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides maybe this time it's different
I mean I really think you'll like me

Sunday, June 28, 2009


people who are angry all the time! why are you so angry! what's happened to you to make you like this!
Don't you just wanna grab their shoulders and try to shake it out of them and tell them to grow up, life's too short to complain about everything!
i'm a massive hypocrite writing this, i know :V but for the time being i'm happy

this weekend

subway, transformers, new people, inside jokes, singing alive with the glory of love at the top of my lungs, finishing the book we're reading in english, reading my favourite book, talking to my brother, losing my eyeliner, pissing off georgias sister, fitting eight teenage girls into one car, confusing hungry jacks drive-through employees, cherry coke, hawaiin pizza all over the back seat, lots of gossip girl, chocolate fountain, more inside jokes, attempting to stay awake until the sun rise, phone alarms, waiting for public transport, seeing will, rundle street, torrens, king william street, home, dinner, blogging.
i'm so happy :)
work experience tomorrow. i'm going to some advertising agency or somethinggg. it'll be good but bad, good because it's an amazing place bad because i'm so painfully shy around new people.

Friday, June 26, 2009

transformers breakdown.

not really, to be honest i'm too tired, i was 'resting my eyes' in the cinema tonight, and i actually fell asleep watching a movie in aus studies the other day. last day of my first semester of year eleven today, so glad i don't have any school for the next three weeks, i reeally need the break, i've pretty much been studying my ass off for the last ten weeks and it took a lot out of me. at least now i'll be able to answer all your questions about the civil rights movement (history), of mice and men (english), how to speak german (...german), studio portraiture (photography), or gallipoli (aus studies).
notice how i intentionally left out maths of the list of things i know stuff about.
yessss i think i'm over-tired *stays up*
fucking hell, i'm meant to be talking about transformers.
well, eh, *shrugs*, maybe i would've liked it more if i had less oestrogen and more testosterone. it was basically 80% robot alien fight scenes, 90% lame slapstick jokes (that i laughed at), 5% megan fox and 5% storyline/dialogue. seriously, at one stage of the movie, two robots were fighting in a warehouse, i phased out for a few minutes and the next thing i knew, two different robots were fighting in a forest. and it went for too long and the last about half an hour i had absolutely no idea what was going on, except that they were in egypt and somehow the us army was involved.
seriously though, why do american movies always portray the us army as saving the world? why are they the only country that matters? fucking nationalism. haha, i joke, i joke. please don't shoot me.
megan fox is hot.

post script: i bought my formal ticket yesterdayyyyyyyyy ^-^"

Thursday, June 25, 2009

can't wait to get my film developed

cause i've taken photos of a lot of antics over the last few weekends ^-^

my day tomorrow

maths = class party
german = class party
photography = gotta get my assignment finished once and for all! -___-"
aus studies = class party
english = class party
history = watching a movie
and thennnnnnnnn

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

I hate you

because I don't.
You're making it really hard for me to stay away from you, but I'm staying strong.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

to do

- stop wearing my heart on my sleeve so much
- stop procastinating
- get a job


Nothing makes sense!
so i won't think about it. i'll go with the ignorance.
eat sleep fuck and flee, four words that's me. i am full of indifference.
I love max bemis yesss, the day i saw say anything in concert was quite seriously the best day of my life.

Monday, June 22, 2009


i've had so many thoughts running through my head today, but now that it actually comes down to it, i can't pin anything down with words. I dunno, at this moment in time my mind is extremely fucking empty. it's sortof nice, i guess.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

I'm growing up

I'm not even going to interfere with you any more. For once i'm going to be the mature one and leave you alone from now on, i'm too messed up and you deserve better than a crazy bitch like me. You're happy now, without me. at first i was angry but pretty soon i accepted it. It'll be hard staying away from someone as amazing as you but i think that for your sakes i'll manage without you.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Just watched 'pleasantville'

soo good.
Dad picked it out at the video shop, i wasn't really that keen on it and i don't really like tobey mcguire or reese witherspoon normally.
But this was so good, i really recomend it.
Yep, pretty soon i'm gonna go watch The Beach and tomorrow when Dillan comes over we're watching Quarantine

Mmmmdkgdtjhdrtjdsrtk it seems like i'm the only person in the world without a boy or girlfriend. it's 11pm on saturday night, everyone's out living their lives and enjoying themselves and i'm sitting at home coughing my guts up, I can't even breathe properly.

Friday, June 19, 2009

American beauty

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me. But it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry. You will someday.

Yeah i know it's probably an overused quote but i like it so whatever.

it's 11:11

somewhere in the world.

Yes, and although i seriously doubt that there's anyone out there actually paying attention to me, I won't be blogging so much stupid shit next week when I actually have school, i.e. something to consume all this free time. so. make of that what you will.

i'm so stupid today

I keep writing things like these
"is also shown in A Walk Through Hell, throw lyrics such as"
One of the most noticeable similarities between the two texts is the theme, storylines, themes and storylines."
I give up, I'm so distracted. *puts the kettle on*

Yeah anyway in other news, Georgia invited me back to Geelong! I went there with her last october with her and jacquie. we stayed in a granny flat for about ten days, which were seriously probably some of the ten best days of my life. I couldn't even explain to you why they were so good. I could tell you everything that happened there, but it'd probably be monotonous for you to read, but i dunno. Nothing could touch us. So i'm so glad to go back there, although this time it's with georgia and elly. Nah that's a good thing, I wanted to get to know Elly better anyway :) I'm so excited. My only problem is that i've started worrying that our plane'll crash, or that this time around my expectations'll be too high. But while we're there it's mine and Elly's birthdays two days apart, so party artyyyy.
Um alsooooo, today's my last day off of school because of swine flu :( not looking forward to monday, apparently there's only about a dozen year elevens that didn't show up today, haha oops.


to forget, remind yourself not to be reminded any more.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I've never told a lie

and that makes me a liar. i've never made a bet but we gamble with desire. i've never lit a match with intent to start a fire but recently the flames are getting out of control. call me a name, kill me with words, forget about me it's what i deserve. i was your chance to get out of this town but i ditched the car and left you to wait outside. i hope the air will serve to remind you that my heart is as cold as the clouds of your breath and my words are as timed as the beating in my chest.
i love alex gaskarth a lot and all time low were incredible live.

just woke up and

the whole house is cold, dark and still.
It's eerie, i have no idea where anybody is, they were here when i fell asleep.

It finally happened

I saw a photo of myself from when i was going out with you, and i wondered what you were doing wasting your time on me. I've been waiting for this day for a long time.
I think it's a good thing, it means i've grown up since then.
It's a bad thing, maybe if i met you now i would've dealt with things better.
I shouldn't think about you so much. sometimes i wish the company from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind was real.

Eddie vedder and rational conversations

I can't stop listening to this.

The whole into the wild soundtrack is awesome :)

I've been doing this thing lately. rather than yelling at people i've been talking it out, like a normal person. i didn't sit down and decided to do this, maybe i'm just growing out of temper tantrums. my life's getting on track, it's fucking great.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

I'm really very


favourite youtube videos ^^,

Yepyepyeppp i'll probably add more as i think of them :D gotta go write an essay about martin luther king now.

negative for swine flu

but positive for regular flu, which apparently is worse/lasts longer than swine flu, haha.
Yeah, pretty much i've felt extremely fucking hungover since sunday night.

And cause of extensions etccc, now i only have to do my history essay by tomorrow, photography assignment by next friday, english assignment by friday
sdhgsjdthjkdrt i'm actually pretty happy, considering..